Recently as I was getting ready for work I had my kids look at me and say “Do you really have to go to work today?” and in that moment it stopped me in my tracks because in my head as an adult l just kept saying I was doing this for the kids but in reality they don’t understand just how expensive everything is, all they see is you leave and they don’t understand when you will be coming back until they are older. Yes all my kids understand that we go to work to get money so that the can have the food they want and to be able to watch Netflix and be able to go on holidays costs money but they don’t understand just how much and I even remember this as a kid myself $5 is like getting the lottery to a child so they think everything is going to be around that price but even now I look at that $5 and think that really isn’t even going to get them a toy they will enjoy.

It’s the same as the hubby and I were sitting on the couch the other night with our youngest and she is a daddy’s girl in general but you know normally I get some love and attention haha but after he went back on shift for work then had a spur of the moment 1 day off she was attached to him like there was no tomorrow and we realized just how much they notice when we aren’t around and I have been sitting here and thinking is it worth it?

Is it worth missing out on the small amount of time we have with them before they are off and at school 5 days a week then coming home to homework and after school activities? Is it worth the extra childcare centre days that cost over $100 a day per child when you look at your pay check at the end of the week and question whether you are actually bring anymore income into the house or whether you’re actually losing because of those fees? Is it worth your kids looking at you with that bit of disappointment when they realize your aren’t going to be there that day or you aren’t going to be the one picking them up because as an adult you think you are making the right decision?

You see as an adult we have to look at the bigger picture, we have bills to pay, food to buy, school fees and extra curricular activities, if you want to be able to go a holiday or buy something new, it all comes down to money and these days with have 4 kids and 2 adult those prices are high without us even thinking about our businesses that we want to open ourselves or buying a house or even new cars. They are a luxury that we don’t get to indulge in and a lot of parents out there are the same because we put our kids needs first which is make sure there is enough for them then we will work everything else out but to be able to put the kids first I am realizing we need to look at the personal time the kids are getting with us and not always the material items. It’s the same as when sicknesses goes through the house and believe me we have just dealt with this last week there are some days where you have no choice but to call work and say you can’t come in but really every time you do that you run the risk of losing your job and when you have a 2 year old son who won’t let go of mummy when he is sick it kind of puts us in a hard spot, but no one ever said parenting was easy and I got to say congrats to those out there that have it down pat because it is hard and it is a balancing act but you do get there and you will do what works for your family because what works for one family won’t work for another 🙂

Talk again soon CC ❤