My next few post are going to cover the good, bad and ugly of pregnacy for me. I will be posting in 3 parts:

• Part 1 – the struggles I faced and the pain I experiences with each pregnancy
• Part 2 – the joy and beauty of my pregnancies and the ways I made myself still love my new body
• Part 3 – my body post 4 babies

So you know that magical glow you’re meant to get during pregnancy well it’s not always all its crack up to be, it isn’t all sunshine and rainbows that’s for sure. Don’t get me wrong every pregnancy is different and every person will experience different things but for me it wasn’t a walk in the park for any of my 4. So I thought today that we could go back a few year and I’ll tell you what it was like for me with each of the kids.

Ok so going back about 6 years now I was 17 and had just found out I was pregnant I have got to say it was a massive shock, I had heard of people just knowing that they were pregnant and well that was me I wasn’t late or anything and when I took a test and went to the doctor he said I would have only been a week or two a long and he said that he was surprised that I had even worked it out but to me it was just instinct as my mum put it. For the weeks that followed the morning sickness decided to kick in but what made it worse was the fact that I wasn’t actually being sick I just had the constant feeling of wanting to be sick. By about 3 months the feeling had started to settle but then as my belly started to grow and as my skin had never really stretched before as I was on the small size it felt like it was tearing apart where my stretch marks showed. Around half way through my sciatic nerve started to pinch and as I was still working at this time I started to really struggle, everyday tasks became harder and by 32 weeks I had to stop work. I was constantly uncomfortable from this point on and just took it as each day come. Then it finally came to my due date and guess what that came and went and my precious little bundle was still as snug as a bug in my belly and showing no sign of making an enterance, so my induction date was set and you know how it is normally 10 days they wait well they were a little busy as they put it so my induction date was set for 12 days over but with frequent check ups and I was brought back into the hospital the day before to get a full work up to see how things where going and to my luck there was an opening that afternoon and I was able to be induced a little earlier. so that thenn took is to the process of labour but I’ll leave that out for now and may do a post about that another time 🙂

Ok so after having my little girl her father and I seperated and started co-parenting and I began a relationship with someone else and so did he. So fast forward a few months and my little girl was 9 months and well I had a new little surprise that would be joining our little family and well that pregnancy wasn’t to much better than my first but the pain I had previously experience was worse the second time round. Just over half way through my sciatic nerve started to get worse again and it got to the point where I was told I was unable to drive because of the spasms that would run down my leg. By the end of my pregnancy my due due date had come and I was ready for littlest to join us, so for the date we went swimming and I did laps until I could do no more, we then went and picked up my eldest from kindy and went down the park for a swing and by that night my body had decided that it was time and off we were to introducing our newest edition the next morning.

Once little number 2 was born her father and I realized that our realtionship to put it bluntly was toxic and that it wasn’t good to be in around the children but this was something that had been coming for a long time. After my husband and I started our relationship and believe me we had many of talks about everything you can think of and he came into this with his eyes wide open. A few months into our relationship I had a mirena put in and 4 weeks later my body rejected it and 4 weeks after that we lost our little angel who was a little miricle as I had fallen pregnant while the mirena was in place and that was one of the hardest things my husband and I have ever experienced. I hear the stories where people say at only that far along you don’t even know it or that there little heart isn’t beating but to us that was still a new little life that we were so excited to be bringing into this world and to this day we still think about our angel all the time. At this point we made the choice that we wanted more kids and that is where our next two little ones came into the equation.

Once we fell pregnant with our rainbow baby I have got to say it was amazing news but that was where we then started to have our problems because what I thought was hard in pregnancy this time round it was 10 times worse and as we found out we were having a little boy that was all the indication I needed to know that it was going to be troubling. So as the months went on and hospital trip after hospital trip and being put on bed rest I can’t even remember how many times we came down to the final leg but right near the end we then discovered well and truly after we should have that I had gestational diabetes so for the final 4 weeks of my pregnancy it was test after test to make sure I was keeping things under control and at 37 weeks we were doing weekly ultrasounds to see how big our boy was getting. By 38 weeks I had gone into false labour twice and had contraction that lasted half the night but then didn’t go anywhere and at just over 38 weeks we went to the hospital with low movements and we went for an ultrasound and were told that due to low movement and our little man not practicing his breathing as much as they would like we were booked in 3 days later to be induced and after 12 hours we were holding our beautiful rainbow baby.

9 months went by and we decided to add one last edition to our troop (that is for now who knows what the future holds haha) and for this pregnancy we were back to the same problems but not as bad as our son until the last 2 months and that was the first time I experienced symphysis pubis seperation and for anyone who doesn’t know what that is it is the seperation of the public bone due to excessive pressure and and the instability of muscles. On top of this I got a kidney infection which landed me back in hospital and then sent home with medication and told to let it pass and I must say laying in bed with shooting pain in my side and then having my public bone feeling like it was about to snap was a whole new pain that I never expected. Well and once again my due date came and went and when I was 4 days over I finally went into labour at about 1.30am and then it was all go and the next day we became a family of 6.

Thoughout all my pregnancies though even with all the pain and loss I would still do it all again and never regret any of it and I hope this helps someone out there know that what you are experiences can be normal and if it’s great for you then enjoy it as much as you can becuase once your little addition comes along that’s when the real fun begins 🙂

Talk again soon CC ❤